V2.2

New Years Eve is upon us.. As we roll onto 2009 I'm sure we all ponder on how quickly the year went, where we spent most of our time, what we have achieved and what is to come. This year I thought I had found love, I was wrong. I found out who my real friends are, and moved in with them. I got screwed over by a few guys, moved on and got retribution [mostly]. I got a new job, passed most of my subjects and have 2 third's of a degree. I got pay rises, new contracts, had a car die. Had a beloved friend pass on, had the usual family things pull on my patience strings. Realised I don't belong where I am and that it is time to move on to bigger and hopefully better things. Managed to get closer to my beliefs and religion, which has been a massive plus in my strength. Having had only one attempt this year, I think that's pretty good considering.

New Years resolutions - who does them? Who sticks to them? I have decided to find myself,;find what makes me happy and maybe even find a companion of the opposite sex for, well, companionship. Mind you, I figure there is not much point looking if we are planning on moving mid-year anyway. That can wait, there is always time for that stuff later.

This will be a quick one, as I am planning on having a nap before I head out to my friend Dan's for New Years drinks, then fireworks and pool party galore. Yeah, it is aout time I became sociable again I though.

V2.1

This month has been a busy one, hence lack of posts for 3 weeks. In the past 21 days we have moved house, had Christmas, done some thinking.

I have been contemplating this for what seems forever and it is the most important question I have at this point in time. What do you think will happen? I mean, what happens once we pas on? Modern science tells us that humans are just material that will decompose and our minds will fade out of existence like a spark of electricity and this life we live as far as we go. What I would like to believe is that when we pass away, we will return to our true essence, and merge 'the collective' if you will, unseen energy that makes up our universe.

I think that everybody wants to believe that there is an afterlife simply [or maybe not so simply] because the thought of non-existence scares them. People seem to either turn to religion to better comfort them and believe that they will get everything they ever wanted and be blissfully happy all the time/for the rest of eternity [sounds to me like someone did not get what they wanted out of life perhaps] or to Atheism to try and believe in the science of the "energy" called the soul in your body that leaves after death and apparently takes your consciousness with you.

Perhaps when you die your consciousness does not go with you, energy does not hold your thoughts and memories and decisions, however instead your brain does. Perhaps when you die, just like anything else in this universe, your energy gets recycled and reused by other sources that use your energy. This is a deliriously thought thought but maybe; possibly a fact that you still cannot deny, the human race has dulled down anything that scares them or found a way to counter that fear or suppress it, death is just something that humans cannot mass prevent cheaply, so many random theories come out about it trying to make us feel like we have "control" - Because there is nothing more us humans like than power and control over situations to make us feel important and special [Do note the bit of sarcasm there]...

Staring at this screen as the clock ticks by makes me wonder how much longer I will be around. Unfortunately I am not currently feeling the most lively, hence this blog lacking energy, enthusiasm or general care.

V2.0

Christmas is fast on its way, and with it slowly my Christmas spirit is rising. I am liking that this year I have been ultra organised, presents have been wrapped, carded and sent off. Woo hoo.

Also, we got the house we applied for - which means moving next weekend [we get the keys in 7 days], so that will keep us busy up until Christmas where we head to Katey's parents for the day etc. This will be my first Christmas away from family which I think shall be interesting. On the upside, I am making rum balls and cherry ripe balls for my Nan and Pop to take back home with them for the family [My brother adores them, so I figured it would be nice for him to have some again this year :P].

I am currently thoroughly enjoying xTyrantx's new album, 'Prepare For Devastation'; it makes me a happy panda. Unfortunately, today [well more so this evening] I had half planned on going to the movies or something with a boy, however it would seem that we both sort of ceased making half attempted plans. I think it has just been a long, tiring week. Maybe another time then...

I am losing motivation to play - well rather finish - Final Fantasy X. It is shaping up to be the biggest bunch of shinanigans. In short, I am not a fan. However I have Brothers in Arms: Earned in Blood and a few others so I might give them a try tonight :)

Anywho, seeing as I am not working tonight and Katey and Lyns are going out for Katey's Christmas work do, it shall be a night of Pina Colada's [non to low alcoholic] and half arsed Long Island Iced Tea's [with more mixer than tradition tells us]. Shaping up to be an interesting, yet chilled evening..