V6.0

Since my last post, I have ended my relationship with the guy I was dating (7 months later). I knew it was for the best, and once you know it is not meant to be it is best to end it before it goes too far. Unfortunately, ours had passed that stage. You win some you lose some.

I had a friend from my former/Brisbane life pass away on Wednesday the 9th of September. It came as a surprise to so many of us, and he will be sorely missed. Many of the old regulars, as well as current followers of the Brisbane metal scene will remember a friendly, fun loving bloke known as Snailz. Robert 'Snailz' Martin was the one who shook your hand every time you entered the venue, had a beer and a joke with you, and didn't have a negative thing to say about anyone or anything. He was in the moshpit of every local metal band's set, front row centre. He was a great mate to all who knew him. You'll be sorely missed, Snailz.

On another - more positive note, I have added another year to my life, and also I have been bettering myself via losing weight as well as removing negativity. Since being back home I have lost over 15 kilograms, although I aim at losing a further 25. At least this time I am doing it the proper way, exercise and healthier eating habits.

Pop is still in hospital, although this one takes a fair bit too much to explain so I shall leave it for another time.

V4.2

Hasn't this month just flown by! Work has been going - I have two jobs now which is good - as well as still doing the web mastering at home in my spare time. Family are good, although a new addition is still yet to join us (by this I indeed mean a puppy) - all in good time I am indeed hoping.

A little confused about boys at the moment. I have been seeing one down here who is quite lovely. But things seem to be easing off a bit - have not seen him in a little while due to both of us being quite busy. I am not entirely sure where I stand with him. Then again I don't know where he stands in my mind at the moment. I will summon up the courage to work that one out soon. There is of course, another one - from Brisbane. Still managing to play on my mind. It is weird, I will start to be getting over him then *ZHAM* he just reappears out of nowhere - and of course I somewhat fall all over again. Although admittedly, I am getting better with withholding the emotions a bit. I need to be realistic, logical, all that serious stuff.

Supanova (Melbourne) was on the weekend just gone - fun was definitely had, all be it early, early mornings (try getting up at 5:30am on a day off, and not getting home until after 9pm!).. But definitely well worth it. It reiterated my slight intrigue with dwarves (there was an uber, UBER cute guy at Supanova - complete with glasses and awesome hair).. Argh, I don't mean to sound politically incorrect tonight, nor do I mean to offend.. But I don't know, I mean everyone has their thing that they are into - I guess I like height extremes :-p Enough rambling for now I think.

The joy of the possible flu is making my head hurt, immensely.

V3.2

I'm falling, fading away. What more can I say. I am getting that pitting feeling again, and I do not like how it changes me. I really don't. I get apathetic about everything from work, to housework and it even spreads over to gaming and other such areas. I hate what this feeling does to me, but sometimes I do not know how to deal with it. Ugh. Frustrating. Anyway, in short the past weeks or so have been a bit of a struggle so I am hoping they improve rapidly. In helping things to improve, I bought Star Wars Lego for the PS2 for $13 at the EB Games sale today. I'm quite chuffed, and am looking forward to the possibility of a weekend gaming.

I have been doing better in other areas as of late. I have opened my socialising up more and even initiated events. I've been hanging out with old friends more as of late which has been ace, and even mending bridges with others. Heck, I even went out for dinner andandand a ferris wheel ride.. Aha Daniel, you are a champion for letting me hold on a I went through scenarios of how we could meet our demise. I am hopeless at big heights.

I believe boys are complicated [and I don't deny that they probably think the same about us].. But really, I say what I mean and try not to leave a 'sub-level' meaning. Why can't others do the same? My toe twitching from the other week still hasn't stopped. Seeing the Doctors soon again though.

Also, just quickly... If you say you're going to do something in passing and then say 'Ok, I'll talk to you later about it!', this does NOT mean you have made plans. So instead of making me feel awful, get over it :]

V2.2

New Years Eve is upon us.. As we roll onto 2009 I'm sure we all ponder on how quickly the year went, where we spent most of our time, what we have achieved and what is to come. This year I thought I had found love, I was wrong. I found out who my real friends are, and moved in with them. I got screwed over by a few guys, moved on and got retribution [mostly]. I got a new job, passed most of my subjects and have 2 third's of a degree. I got pay rises, new contracts, had a car die. Had a beloved friend pass on, had the usual family things pull on my patience strings. Realised I don't belong where I am and that it is time to move on to bigger and hopefully better things. Managed to get closer to my beliefs and religion, which has been a massive plus in my strength. Having had only one attempt this year, I think that's pretty good considering.

New Years resolutions - who does them? Who sticks to them? I have decided to find myself,;find what makes me happy and maybe even find a companion of the opposite sex for, well, companionship. Mind you, I figure there is not much point looking if we are planning on moving mid-year anyway. That can wait, there is always time for that stuff later.

This will be a quick one, as I am planning on having a nap before I head out to my friend Dan's for New Years drinks, then fireworks and pool party galore. Yeah, it is aout time I became sociable again I though.

V1.7

Last night I received a phone call from a not so nice ex [for those who know me and my life, it's the cheater]. Anyway, I hadn't spoken to him in over a year and he calls out of the blue, no doubt calling for something in particular. Long story short, I am left to be feeling like I have done something utterly wrong even though logics and rationality are both telling me that I am in fact in the right. So to remove the temptation of having a go at him, I have since removed him from all accounts as well as deleted his number. Good move on my behalf, I think. Also, epic win to Helen [Lyns' Mum] for being home to allow me to vent and make me see that in fact I am in the right and I hadn't done anything wrong. =]

On the upside, I am going through a short phase of thoroughly enjoying cheerleading again. Bring It On seems to always put me in the mood for bad 90's pop and dance music, and the feeling/desire to want to wear lycra blend skirts has never been so great. With pom pom's and uniform to match, such as this, who can resist the temptation to dream about 'bringing it'? As with the movie I watched last night, the somewhat alternative guy gets the Hollyood girl, mind you I still end up with a smile on my face as they kiss at the end. Besides, who could ever forget the credit bit where the Clover's and the Toro's come together to do a rendition of 'Hey Mickey.' Can I get a, I said brr... It's cold in here, there must be some Toros in the at-mos-phere!

Who could forget the spirit fingers?

The sequel Bring It On Again follows a slightly [well, entirely] different story line than the first of the trio. Freshman gets into squad, leader is a bitch, freshman leaves squad and starts own with university outcasts. The costumes [to me] don't seem as awesome, but it seems there's still a whole lot of pep! The underdogs come to win, and the freshman even gets the guy. How bomb-diggity?! If you learn anything from this film, it's to don't be all up in my Kool-Aid.

Kool-Aid, ghetto style.