V4.1

As of this week, new job, and we have found a puppy that we are considering - having a meet and greet with him next week! Also, Will's 25th on Thursday which I am happy I will finally be here for, for the first time in like 3 years.

I have only been back home for 2 weeks or so and I feel myself falling into a nice routine, getting back into the feel of my surrounds, and enjoying the ability to see certain people a fair amount. Among these certain people is a strange one. I’m not entirely sure how to describe him, but he’s definitely rad at the very least. So yes, I seem to be growing quite fond of a particular male. He is like no one I have had the pleasure of meeting (having said that, he does remind me somewhat of a close friend), and he makes me smile like I haven’t done so in such a long time. He isn’t afraid to hold my hand, he isn’t afraid to call me an Oldfag once I have called him a Newfag. He is happy to game with me, discuss gaming, technology, politics as well as religion. He can go on and on about computers, knowing my knowledge lies within other feats – and I like it. He has only been around a short time, but already I feel as though I’m learning from him. It is such a bizarre feeling, but most definitely a good one. He leaves me with butterflies and a huge smile, something which I haven’t legitimately had in oh such a while.

As I said, he hasn’t been around for a while so I will be careful with getting my hopes up. But between us, I hope he sticks around :-)

V3.2

I'm falling, fading away. What more can I say. I am getting that pitting feeling again, and I do not like how it changes me. I really don't. I get apathetic about everything from work, to housework and it even spreads over to gaming and other such areas. I hate what this feeling does to me, but sometimes I do not know how to deal with it. Ugh. Frustrating. Anyway, in short the past weeks or so have been a bit of a struggle so I am hoping they improve rapidly. In helping things to improve, I bought Star Wars Lego for the PS2 for $13 at the EB Games sale today. I'm quite chuffed, and am looking forward to the possibility of a weekend gaming.

I have been doing better in other areas as of late. I have opened my socialising up more and even initiated events. I've been hanging out with old friends more as of late which has been ace, and even mending bridges with others. Heck, I even went out for dinner andandand a ferris wheel ride.. Aha Daniel, you are a champion for letting me hold on a I went through scenarios of how we could meet our demise. I am hopeless at big heights.

I believe boys are complicated [and I don't deny that they probably think the same about us].. But really, I say what I mean and try not to leave a 'sub-level' meaning. Why can't others do the same? My toe twitching from the other week still hasn't stopped. Seeing the Doctors soon again though.

Also, just quickly... If you say you're going to do something in passing and then say 'Ok, I'll talk to you later about it!', this does NOT mean you have made plans. So instead of making me feel awful, get over it :]

V3.1

He's gone. A man who terrorised me back home, caused heart-ache and distress; altered lives forever.. Passed away. Now I am quite sensitive when it comes to people passing - I've seen over a handful of dead bodies in my life during work.. However I will not be one of those that do a complete 180 and once the person passed act as though we were friends, we got along, we cared. He was not a good person, he did not have a heart of gold [do not get me wrong, we are not all perfect]. Granted, he was in a tough place towards the end - his final attempt encased him in a limp; lifeless body until ultimately he met his demise.

This event closes an important chapter in our book, I will no longer be thinking 'what if', what if he was to 'suddenly' get better and it happen all over again? I knew it was impossible, to go from what he had become back to what he was, but it never stopped me from wondering. This event will give a number of us the closure in our lives that we have been looking for, for years.

I probably sound cold but I refuse to be one of the ones who turns and says, 'He had so much to live for what a shame.. Isn't it sad..' Etc. That is not me, and although he lived the past couple of years in somewhat torture - he was finally on the receiving end. I know, I sound cruel, but I have good reasons to. I get that it was sad what he tried to do towards the end.. But he did it all to himself. You know, you reap what you sew.

On another note, time for a change. Going to take some time off uni and do some IT stuff for a while. I need to chill and get myself together, and just enjoy myself for the time being. Before I burn out; or my back goes again.

Holidays soon! Heading home [Geelong] for 9 or so days, then on to Tassie where I will be meeting up with Katey, Lyns et al for 6 days to hunt around and such. I seriously can not wait - so excited!!

Cadbury factory here we come!


I sincerely hope they have this at Tassie Cadbury..

Well, off to have lunch with the Nana!

V3.0

Happy New Years to all! After much waiting, 2009 is finally upon us! I [among others I am sure] have been waiting a long while for this year to finally be here, and here it is! Last night for me was spent between my friend Dan's and Southbank for the midnight fireworks... Oh and in the back of the ambulance. Ahah fun fun.

It started off by me waving goodbye to Katey from the front yard as I set off to the station. Having not been to our new station before I left with ample time, yet today the train decided to come early and hence I did not have time to get a ticket [what a rebel, I know!]. After getting Jane to get me a ticket and bring it to me so I could get out of the train station unscathed of a $150 fine, we made our way to the happy herbs shop in the Valley. This place is hippy to the extreme, and smells wonderfully of incense and hemp clothing. It makes me reminisce over the hippy events/festivals that my mum used to take us to, including such things as Confest and other glorious places; times.

After getting some [completely legal] happy pills and brew we headed to the supermarket to get dinner items - it was decided I cook apricot chicken for us tonight. After trying to take a supermarket trolley out of the supermarket full of bags and still needing to go to the bottle shop, we were stopped by the attendant. Turns out that once you leave the store, the wheels lock so as to prevent trolley theft. It seems it has been a long while since I had been to the good ol' Valley. Heh.

After we trekked up to the Jubilee to collect booze for the others, had a minor flirt with the attendant - who says curls DON'T get the girls - and we were on our way back to Dan's new pad, with a carton of Vodka Cruisers. Ahah, I feel like the epitome of a teenage girl, except that I am well over legal age. Shame. It helped a little that Dan was carrying it, knowing fair well that he enjoys the taste an alcoholic beverage that fairs the same as soft drink. Somehow I think back to the 'outrage' experienced by the Australian Family Association over the 'Alcopop Free Condom Offer.' Can not be bothered explaining, but in the end came this lulzy picture:

Anyway, got to Dan's where I cooked an awesome apricot chicken with rice where we had one or two drinks and played Sing Star. Turns out, I am not too bad at it. We headed out to Southbank to meet up with some of Jane's friends. We danced to bad dance, try hard trance and mandatory songs [such as 'The way you make me feel', and Toni Basil's 'Hey Mickey'] in a sea of people who did not seem to be dancing, which turns out produces pictures like this:

After sitting down for a while, I started to feel ill. Leapt up, running to the bathroom where I proceeded to vomit up blood. Tasty much [Keep in mind I had a total of 2 (two) drinks].. After spending a good 30 minutes to find the ambulance officers with police being next to no help, they took a set of obs and said I was fine and dandy and to just take it easy. I am thinking that the heat, dancing and lack of water did not agree with me. It was dark blood so that tells us that it is old - i.e. no problemo. As I stepped out of the ambulance, walked down to the steps the fireworks started. Happy New Years. I looked around, finding Dan and Jane's cheery faces which seemed to melt away the reality of drunken youths and annoying people in general. Fireworks were not as good as I had hoped for, but were pretty all the same.

After the trek back to Dan's, I downed about a litre of water while the others had more alco pops and we wandered down to the pool. Sat around and had a long chat, then deciding that we would bail out on the pool idea and pass out in front of the air conditioner instead [mainly because someone was getting 'busy' in the pool, or so it seemed]. Good choice I say [in us deciding to bail]. The day after involved pizza, Kung-Fu Panda, Futurama, air conditioner and the pool. All in all a reasonably decent New Years.

Besides, it is all worth it when you have awesome kids to hang out with..

V2.2

New Years Eve is upon us.. As we roll onto 2009 I'm sure we all ponder on how quickly the year went, where we spent most of our time, what we have achieved and what is to come. This year I thought I had found love, I was wrong. I found out who my real friends are, and moved in with them. I got screwed over by a few guys, moved on and got retribution [mostly]. I got a new job, passed most of my subjects and have 2 third's of a degree. I got pay rises, new contracts, had a car die. Had a beloved friend pass on, had the usual family things pull on my patience strings. Realised I don't belong where I am and that it is time to move on to bigger and hopefully better things. Managed to get closer to my beliefs and religion, which has been a massive plus in my strength. Having had only one attempt this year, I think that's pretty good considering.

New Years resolutions - who does them? Who sticks to them? I have decided to find myself,;find what makes me happy and maybe even find a companion of the opposite sex for, well, companionship. Mind you, I figure there is not much point looking if we are planning on moving mid-year anyway. That can wait, there is always time for that stuff later.

This will be a quick one, as I am planning on having a nap before I head out to my friend Dan's for New Years drinks, then fireworks and pool party galore. Yeah, it is aout time I became sociable again I though.

V1.3

Note to self: close windows of a night time. I woke up this morning to spitting rain falling on me as I left the window open. Could have been worse.

Originally I had this blog as a big WAAA about me making a mistake in regards to a friendship and a slip of judgement. Anyway, since spending a little while thinking about it I have come to the conclusion that infact I have nothing to be sorry about. I never posted your name on the particular blog and never gave away nor told anyone that it was indeed about you. I do not believe I should be sorry, if you believe I should be then how about I wait for my apology for you telling that lady at uni one of my secrets? Yeah, respect [or what is perceived to be] can go both ways. Think about it.

Do not get me wrong, I have kept the promises I have made, and I will continue to. I have no intentions on going back on them.